This all seems very familiar. I've never heard the term "narc'd" before, that's a good one. That's definitely how I feel. Keep yourself safe from this man. There is always a tendency to feel guilty when someone has treated us this way, as though we allowed them to do what they did, or that we have done something to make them act the way they do. For our part, what we did is give them the benefit of the doubt for far too long. My T told me the other day, "If you were standing in the road and a car was coming toward you, you would get out of the way of the car. Your instinct is to protect your body. You need to do the same for your mind." Some people are predisposed to ending up in this type of relationship, I know I am, and I seem to learn my lesson over and over. Through my upbringing with a parent with a PD, that protection instinct has been broken. I'm hoping that through therapy I can learn how to never do this again. Learn from this experience. If you feel that counseling would be helpful, it would be a good idea to talk to a professional about this experience and learn some skills to keep out of it in the future. Good luck, stay safe!