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Aug 01, 2011, 09:28 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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Feeling better tonight. 
Sometimes I think that if I read research articles on DID and I try to over-educate myself about it that I'll reach a deeper understanding about how I became multiple. Really...? We already have that answer, given how we were brought up...but, don't know...just always looking for something more to explain.
I guess sometimes I don't feel like what I lived through is enough......even though I know it was more than enough. So I start reading, and I get overwhelmed and it kind of becomes almost like TMI, you know? Like, I really didn't need to know all that.
As difficult as it is to understand DID on a personal and emotional level, it can be just as difficult to understand it from a more clinical perspective.
Sometimes I still don't believe it is real. Sometimes I think I'm just crazy. My T says this is normal and that it is denial that comes from selective parts who utilize the denial for protection.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!! 
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