I have a friend I met online, who lives 3000 miles away and suffers greatly with Bipolar. I found out after 3 years of talking via phone, email and texting..he not only had addictions but this as well. I have done extensive education on the illnesses he has and accept them plus I have very deep feelings for him.
But I am now at the point where I am very frustrated and sad at the lack I can do for him from the distance. He will not share things like a phone number, other than his, that I could call if he is in a troubled state. It is so hard to care for someone that wants your support but keeps you at bay..per-say. We have been through alot in 4 years and like I said I care deeply for him, but I am thinking I do not have much else to offer in the way of support. Yes I get down somtimes about the fact from what he has told me, his BP is getting worse. I just do not know where to go from here?
By the way, I have never met him in person. Because of my chronic Crohn's disease I could not travel and he has been very sick also over the last 4 years.
I do not want to walk away from him but the distance is draining us both.
Anyone have any thoughts? I know this post is leaving out alot of details, was just looking for thoughts.
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