my friend won't let his oldest babysit... and they are 10-12 (the oldest kids are). It amazed me. I always took care of my brothers at that age, cleaned, cooked, ironed, etc. His kids are very smart but they are also very young...they are kids. I don't relate to that.

I am still very much a "kid" in the way I relate to ppl though. My fears. They hate me. I wanna hide. Its my fault. I did it.

Its so wierd. I'm this really responsible insecure kid still.. what a F*ed up mess i am.