Trippin2.0 I hope you make progress in therapy... :-) I hope you do well.

IDK about therapy yet- today the lights in the "censored hallway" went off while i was walking down them @ work (they should had kicked on again due to I was still walking down the hallway, but they didn't) and this yet while I was thinking of perhaps getting into therapy here soon- then i thought--what sign is this??- is this the sign it is a dark and lonely path i must do by myself?... does it mean I am asking myself is this really a dark hallway in my mind i want to go through?- do i remember only a little or all of it from my past..do i want to remember (no)... geez -

then I snap out of it and think You cant have another fall out with a person especially with the one that you love so dearly (I Tell this to myself- sorry for saying "you").... so therapy is probably best.

Idk when; but eventually I am getting tired of my roller coaster and feel like I may blow soon some days- other times i feel ok- like now- i feel alrighty! and think I dont need someone to help me... but then I remember just a few hours ago I was about to burst due to some thing stupid.... eekk and then i re-read what I just put down and remember my thought about the hallway and think geez *

Signs IDK i am mixed on them; I remember back when I thought somoene was playing with rocks with me and giving me signs. and they werent playing with rocks at all... so there are some bad to signs i guess- My BF told me the other day with me atleast I read and put too much into the signs :-( made me sad.