thats a situation and 1/2 your in. I no your feelings of thinking you are going to be a bad mother because you have no role model to look up to. A parenting class is a great idea for you to learn how to properly scold a child i.e discipline and stuff.

Can you get a social worker to help you maybe find you tempory accomodation and help you finacially. I dnt where you live but in Ireland there is certaonly help for this.

I had a friend that gave a child for adoption so she could have a better life. She has never regretted doing this because she stood by her discision but in saying that it was still not easy for her to. I dont feel that it is a bad thing to do if you really feel you've no option because it shows you are thinking about the child. That is a sign of a good person not a bad person, but b4 making such a discision where theres no going back from i would sujests looking for a social worker to help you 1st.

Im a single mother and my sons father has nothing to do with him at all. He doesnt want to know him or pay for him. I know how hard it can be and all the fears that go with it. I have a social worker helping me because i am struggling and theres no shame in needing help. I was sexually abused as a child so i can relate to you there.

I wish you all the best and i hope you find the help you need. Apart from a socail worker i dnt no what to suggest to you