Protector...what I find is that I actually feel emotions now..instead of just anger and happiness. I feel this whole gamut...feelings suck, and sometimes it's easier for me to turn it into instant anger. But now I know I just have to feel the feeling. Isolating can be good. Like when all of my triplets are screaming...like today...I lock myself in my room for 5 minutes so I don't flip out. I'm glad you didn't bust up all your new stuff. Sigh...I know the feeling. I was only triggered once by something on the BP site, but I'm friends with that person now, and they probably never knew. I think everyone here is well meaning. I know I am...so I figure they must be. Hope Hope.