when i first came here i was in a very bad way so it was very hard for me to accept i had bpd. it felt like i had been given a life sentence. which in a way i suppose it is a life illness but one which you can learn to deal with. i wouldnt like to say its "not as if its like the doc has told you you have got cancer and you only have 6 months to live" because ive felt the ferocity of this illness already and i nearly did kill myself so in a way the by product of the symptoms it gives can in some cases result in death,,, being suicide. sorry to be frank.

when i first was diagnosed with bpd a couple of friends said "well thats good you can join some support groups online and chat to others in the same boat"

which is all very well,,, but we all have varying degrees of this illness. for some our positivity and upbeat attitudes might help and encourage and guide us along in this. but it can also be triggering. and therefore pull us down when we are already depressed. so there are swings and roundabouts. i think we should all be mindful when we log on of the potential pitfalls that lie there given our susceptible natures. i know i can be brought down in an instant. well thats me anyway. so some days when im feeling particularly down you wont hear from me at all. but then you may do cos i will feel i need someone to hear me and lend some words of support.

but mostly i hope to be here to share a few stories about recovery. because i feel ive had my time in crisis now and the only way is up for me. and i want to still come in and stick around for others and share my coping techniques in the hope that it helps others.

im sorry for the long post - im obviously in a good mood today lol