Im sorry to hear your family have completely abondoned you and uve no support network. If you dont mind me asking why are things with your family so bad ? If ive crossed a line asking u im sorry you need to asnwer that. your not a loser just haven a hard life. Do you think that your family problems (with your kids not husband) can be resolved with counciling or do you have a councillor you could talk to about it ?

I hope things do get better for you