u may be physically alone, but there are lots of us out here who share the feelings you are feeling. T is giving me a special appt this week but i dont even think i can tell him i am thinking about SI. i already left a message about wanting to buy a gun. i am afraid he may lock me up. the only thing keeping me from SI is the fear of being locked up. its been at least a year and a half, but the feelings still come regularly. over the silliest of things. i jsut let the feelings pass by.

hang in there. just keep posting.