I won't judge but I will say you are one strong woman to stick around for him. Most women would have picked up & left. I do admire you for striving & continuing to stick by him since most people lose hope especially with someone with such a disease as bipolar, its like aids everyone is scared of it & no one understands it they just judge & label it as "crazy." So you being supportive & not having met him is a courageous thing to do especially long distance.