Searching through the past has its pitfalls, especially when my state of mind depressed. I can contemplate my feelings many ways, often times when I'm looking for some evidence that its not as bad as it was before . Unfortuantally what I search with in a history prespective is often tainted with the present condition of my illness...rendering all for not.

Letting go of my perspective, presently as with the interpretation of past has helped. Still I would want to take hold of a of my ill mind, knowing not of redirecting my thoughts can help.