I woke up in a cold sweat - literally. My T is away on vacation and he said if I needed to I could email him. I did yesterday because of the bad thing that happened last Wed night. I had a nightmare that he called me and said "what was so important that couldn't wait until our session?" In me email, I had explained briefly what happened. I was devistated, and very confused by his response. And began to think that I was over reacting and that it was no big deal. Then I thought that I am supposed to be "available" whenever H wants it. That that is my purpose in life, just like dad said. That's all I'm good for. And that ppl are supposed to treat me like that.............

I can't go back to sleep. I'm so confused
The littles are scared, upset, and going berserk.
Anne and All The Others