Your t is probably bringing up the idea of medication as a way to help you with your depression. Depression is sometimes not only a situational problem, but also a physical issue that meds can help with. It is very doubtful that she is trying to "shove you off on some pdoc." On the contrary, she is trying to help you. I have suffered with depression for many years, and when I am most depressed, quite frankly therapy isn't terribly effective. My mind is just too dull and mushy (can't think of better terms, sorry) to be able to really function most effectively in therapy. By being on meds, my mood normalizes a bit and stabilizes and my mind gets back to really being able to function on all cylinders.

I doubt that she thinks medication is the "solution". Rather, it is one tool that can work in conjunction with therapy to help you.

Get back into your rational mind and think that through. You don't have to see a pdoc or go on medication, but at least understand that your t is not giving up on you or trying to get rid of you. That isn't rational thinking at all, and right now you need to get back into your rational mind about this.

What are you REALLY mad about? Does this come from old fears of abandonment, rejection? Poor self concept? This really isn't about your t; this is about some kind of fear you are experiencing from old stuff.