I too wake up in panic from nightmares. Though not about my therapist. what helps me is I write down at one word from what I remember. (When I try to write out what I can remember about the nightmare I end up off floating in la la land so now I stick with one word) then I walk away from it by going in the kitchen and making me a mug of goodnight hugs (hot chocolate made by hursheys that does not contain caffiene), sometimes while in the kitchen I also take a couple benedrys ( allergy medication that is also prescribed as a sleep aid by doctors here ) then I take the hot chocolate with me into the tub with a bubble bath. The benedryl kicks in within 15-20 minutes so when I get out of the tub its working. Then I go back to bed with a relaxation tape. The one my therapist made works terrific for this.

I hear those same type voices of memories of my abusers. I counter them with writing over and over they are just memories. Anyone that can abuse a child like they abused me dont really know what I am good for. They didn't take the time to get to know what Im good at like and then I make a list of all the things I am good at - writing, drawing, can play a variety of musical instruments - guitar, piano, claranet, flute, recoder, organ, kazzoo, cleaning, my therapist tells me I have great organizational skills, and so on. I usually end up with between 10 and 50 things other than sex that I am good at. I once had a boyfriend that told me that - that was the only thing I was good at. Im a stuborn type person and when I get mad I get even . I showed him a few time how I could be absolutely terrible at it including not performing at all suddenly he was complimenting me on my cooking, and cleaning, anything to not tell me what he thought about my sex skills. LOL He later appologized for making those type of sexual statements.