Sunday seems to be the worst day of the week for me. In my mind, it's a day for couples to do things together or family to spend time together. I live alone and am having really bad anxiety feelings today.

I forced myself out of the house with a friend to go shopping (my favorite thing) but lost interest when I got there. I'm also worried about finances right now because my T is costing me a fortune. I'm not working right now but get full pay at least for a little while longer.

While out with my friend, I had this feeling that I just wanted to be home again, in my house, where I was feeling like crap in the first place! I also have developed twitches - in my lips, my hand, my arm and leg. What's up with that? I feel myself going down that road of thinking that there is something physically wrong with me and I don't want to go there. Does anyone else "twitch"? I was also back to the old faint numbness in part of my face, hand and leg.

I feel like I'm going crazy. I don't know what to do with myself. I soooo need a good nights sleep and I haven't been able to stay asleep for very long, night after loooong night.

I'm having a very bad day and feel lonely, sad and scared.