Thank you so much Jan.

I was doing "okay" today, but had another stupid trigger watching tv. I wish my T would get back from vacation. I guess I would have to figure this out without him anyway.

Just very panicked right now, a bit dissociative, I tried journaling but that only made it worse. So, ughh, I took a pill. That's my last resort. Hopefully I can sleep tonight without dreaming - fat chance. Ugghh!!!!!!