Yes as Craven said, no need at all to be sorry. When we post words about our pain and hurt and challenge, ( and I think we all do that), it helps others who read it, to feel from our heart. I think you are doing great writing here. Sometimes when I am going to sleep I imagine orange sparkles all around me. And it does help. I wonder if you might try that too. Please keep posting. Because I care lots. And so do other people. <3<3<3 for you