Both, I think. It's hard for me to even acknowledge that the anger is there without feeling a rush of intense anger. Adrenaline, I guess? And I want to rant, and be condescending, and point the finger, and curse a lot. But I don't want to be angry at T. I know she is doing the best she can, and I am doing the best I can... I just don't know how to be angry without acting angry.