I could understand your fear of meds (especially with a poor experience the last time).
I don't resist things generally, and the first and second time it was mentioned to me, I shot her down plainly. She was surprised by the tone I took, and how much I tried to deviate from the meds option. I resisted and challenged her for it for MONTHS.
And then she asked why I resisted something that could be so beneficial to me. I told her I was against it, she said she noticed, I asked her how she noticed sarcastically (because I thought I made it pretty clear...). She was appalled at my sarcasm apparently :P But she weathered it.
And in the end, I realised that things weren't gonna get better till I try... I was still very angry, but I realise I've been angry at myself, more than her.