<font color="#000088"> Hi Jen -
Thank you for taking the time to reply.... I DO appreciate that... I wanted to ask you about the checking yourself in aspect.... When I felt the manic side kicking in (anxiety skyrockets, then I just get so 'strong' feeling that I can do just about anything), I TRIED to get into a hospital and they would NOT take me bczu they said I wan't a threat to myself or others... Guess I should have lied and said I was going to kill myself... Apparently there is some law on the books here that prohibit hospitals from committing someone, even if they are willing, unless they are an imminent threat to him/her self or others... Pretty sad when a person is WILLING to go in and they won't take you... So, Ihave to figure out a way to get to my dr. today, in hopes that he will do the right thing(s) and address this ASAP... Just knowing that I may not have another roof over my head adds about 300 pounds more to what is going on already... Like ANY of us need additional drama in our lives....

Whatever happens today, I'll be sure to jump back on here and let you all know as well.... Something has to be done... Something.... Now that I have utilized ALL my 'yearly limits' with my insurance, I know for a fact I'll get turned away like I have in the past... This is ridiculous what you have to go through JUST to get a doctor to acknowledge your existence....

Anyway, thank you again and I hope tohear from you again.... At least I am not in a manic state and I can somewhat concentrate and TRY to get the care I need so bad right now - even if that means a vacation in the hospital.... Niko </font>