I care about my therapist so much because he has helped me a lot. He definitely made an investment in me, one that can't be quantified by what I paid him.

I can assure you, I made him earn it. In fact, I likely underpaid. As Brene Brown said about her therapy, it's been a street fight.

There were times when I thought I wanted my therapist to be my lover, my mother, my father, my best friend - you name it.

But what he was actually doing was showing me how those people are/were supposed to act.

He also let me act out all the wrong thoughts I had when faced with kindness and helped me move to a place where I can trust that. He helped to remove the obstacles that kept me from that trust.

Well, we are still working on that last part. It's the hardest.