Well, the insurance companies don't look at it as paying someone to "care", it is considered health care, because without it, we are not healthy. Infants don't thrive, they die if someone doesn't CARE for them, not just feed them. In my case, and there are statistics now that associate BPD with CSA, and who knows what else, so really, do you want just anyone mucking around with your head? Isn't that how we got into this fix to begin with?

T says he loves me, but heck, he doesn't take me home with him, so what does he really mean? What are those words worth? My theory du jour is, like when we go to see a play performed live on stage as in a theater, we suspend disbelief in order to enjoy end enter into the experience. So too with T, in order to have a corrective, healing, loving experience. To form new connections in our brain. To learn to love. Like taking golf lessons. Cuz I sure as heck lack both skills.