I have figured out I have an obsessive attachment disorder with an email friend - someone I admire greatly because of his occupational prestige. I have no romantic interest in this person. I am cycling through elation, shame over being so out of his league, , anxiety, determination that this has to stop, the vow to stop and then intense despair, grieving and basically, being devastated.... needing medication to chill out. I couldn't function the first attempt i made to end my connection - I fell apart. I got my communication going again - but am now back where I started . It's alittle less intense as before - but still, this sucks. This is a new trip for me.