As a man, I've never had this issue, but I just wanted to comment on how unhelpful doctors are when they say "do the best you can". Really is that what years of medical training and residency, etc... teach these people to say to someone who is atypical bipolar?

If I had to go off my meds like you have, I don't know if I could make it. It's not much help, but from me, I'm wishing the best for you and hope that somehow you are able to manage through what I would consider hell.