I really, really would give almost anything to hear T's voice right now.

I know it probably comes from a very young part of me...things are in upheaval, and he is my safe base.

I am so so sad today. I don't have anyone to talk to. My H is in a major work crisis, my "best friend" won't talk to me anymore...I've reached out on FB and text to other friends and no one is there. My mom is drunk and has been all day...sometimes her half-love helps, but it's almost never available.

My T is on vacation. I feel SO alone and adrift. All of the changes in my life are coming to a head and I seem to be running out of steam with the good coping. I keep telling myself that as long as I keep eating and sleeping and exercising I'm okay, but I have been crying all day (and eating, sleeping, and exercising). And I know big feelings really are okay, but I'm just so LONELY, and I just really really really need T. I just DO.

Ugh. It hurts.