At the end of the session when I give the money over, I do sometmes cringe, likeI have just paid someone to allow me to be self indulgent.

A few months ago I went on a retreat and it cost me a couple of hundred pounds. But the people running the retreat highlighted that the payment was not for me as my place had already been paid for as a gift by the person who stayed there before me. Therefore my money was not for my stay, but it was a donation to allow the person after me to stay there.

So this is what I tell myself sometimes after T - that my payment is a donation to allow my T to continue their work with others and to allow my T to put food on their table, heat their house etc...