soup dragon
i used to have a huge problem with dissociation. even in the dissociative state there was a slight awareness of where my body was at. as i began to feel safer in life, this connection became a bit stronger. i still will dissociate with T but since i feel safe in his office, it is only a feeling of halfway gone. i know he will let me stay gone as long as i need to, so with this awareness, i am able to choose to come back sooner than i normally would because i feel that i am wasting precious time i could be using to work on my issues. i actually wish T would play a role in bringing me back sooner, but he doesnt. he will ask me where i went and tell me that i seemed very peaceful there.