I don't know how else to deal with or handle my ADHD son. (I am not posting this on the ADHD forum because this is more about me than about my son's ADHD - is this ok?)

I got a call from his teacher today who told me that for such a bright boy, 8 weeks at school have pretty much been wasted and that his medication might as well be sweets.

My husband gets angry with the child. I get angry with my husband. I get angry with myself. Today - all I could do was cry. I have made many parenting mistakes, but I try - I really do.

I don't want this to trigger me into another episode.

I feel so sorry for my child. I feel so sorry for me. I feel so ......... sorry!

Having a zero-tolerance level isn't exactly helping.

I have done so much research. I have read books. I know what I am supposed to - yet I feel that I fail miserably each and every time he does something beyond his control but that makes me shake with frustration and irritation and anger.

I am so downhearted right now. His teacher was very kind when she spoke to me = not judgemental at all, but her forthrightness about stuff I already KNOW has terrified me!! Especially since the child is medicated!

I can't afford the play therapy I need to send my son to but I guess I am going to "beg and borrow" so that he can go.

I don't feel nice. I feel dark. I feel worried. And I feel sad (Hey! that could have gone to the creative forum!) Well at least I still have my sense of humour. Maybe not all is lost.

I am sorry this is so long. Thanks for letting me talk.