I have recently been dignosed with borderline personality disorder. After 18 months of work with my Dr. she told me she can not help me. I am as ambivalent as ever. She has recommended I find a specialist in Dialectical Bahavior Therepy (which after my research does offer me hope) I am really, Really trying to be grateful to FINALLY have a name to go with the relentless emptiness and self-loathing I have felt my entire life however I can not help feeling utterly abandoned by her and the world. I am a born optomist which is why I am alive today. Im looking for support in this journey,Thanks.