(((( Tree ))))

I'm sorry you're in such a tough place - and feel the need so strongly for T while he is unavailable. Such difficult emotions....You've gotten some great feedback here. I find that reading T's emails, etc. helps me - although sometimes it makes the urge to see him stronger...ugh. Purging your feelings by email is also another way that might give you some relief.

((( BIG HUGS )))