I am hogging the forums with new posts right now. I am sorry.

My husband came home early from work today. What a surprise. He then put his arms around me and said he missed me which is why he came home early. Well that about reduced to a puddle of tears.

Not long after he got a call from a single, 'no family' friend and that was that. He said "see ya later" and that was hours ago. (It is night time for me) - dinner is dried out - congealing in the microwave. And I am lonely. And feeling terribly sad. I don't mind him going out. I just feel so sad.

I keep wanting to cry. And then I remember all the posts about folks who want to cry but can't and then I feel guilty. How weird is that?

I just want to be held. For the longest time.

The safest place in the world for me, is in my husband's arms. And that is when he'll hold me. And that is when he's actually at home.