Your thread has brought to my attention how highly sensitive I am to whether people are really listening to me or not. I am very attuned to any sign that their minds are wandering and when i sense that I immediately stop talking. I find this happens in my life more often than not. And it seems like I interact with people who love to engage in monologues about themselves and it wouldn't really matter if I'm there or not.

So, that's probably why seeing T is so important to me. For once in my life someone is actually listening to me. It WAS on my list that I took to her on first session that I wanted to be HEARD but I'm just now realizing, thanks to this thread, how pervasive that feeling is that I have. I actually feel invisible most of the time in my life. I feel that I'm only valued if I get my work done and tasks completed.