im growing more and more attached to my fam. therapist who i really *like*. heh. It feels kinda odd going to school every day, seeing her everyday at lunch since she lunch duties, and on every wed. night with my mom too. Although, im growing on her more each day even just by looking at her, and obviously i know i cant have her. heh. Today just hit me, just looking at her in lunch today, just amazed me so much. :] I even been like studying her lately at special events are school has during school in the gym, like ill look the way how shes sitting, and she sits kinda manly with the leg across her other leg sideways, lol. not like how a lady would sit down and cross her leg. So i tried convincing myself she was lez.lol. I know some say to tell her, some say dont--but im really confused at the moment about how to handle this. I want to tell at least one of my doctors, which i told my psychiatrist/therapist who i see on thursday nights. He doesnt really talk about it much with me though as I'd want too, i mean, it sounds dumb and odd but,to tell you the truth, this is actually what i think about most of my day now, her. lol. Especially, it might be kinda akward telling her personally, considering she is kinda in a way treating me in school because its a theraputic high school, i see her everyday at lunch, and id probably loose my family sessions with her on wed, and who knows if shes even a lesbian. :/ But, if i tell my individual therapist at my high school, there both kinda like a team in a way, and they talk when they both have the same student for any form of therapy. They both know, i'm gay or bi too which would make it even harder. I'm just really stuck right now, and i figured id post it in the psychotherapy section, not relationships, considering she is a therapist and its kinda maybe??? effecting my therapy?? idkk. confusinggg..ugh. :[ life is unfair, really it is..heh... :[

deb*