Scars branching like trees a victory and also a defeat I've stopped ages ago only because I was threatened to be sent away back to my mom which I don't ever want @.@ but the feelings always reach their peaks it's too hot to wear sleeves and cover it all but what am I to do excessively scratching like an itch that will never die yet it really isn't and I literally had to yell at myself to stop when I caught myself doing so all a withdraw I want it again nothing is helping and it's not like I don't have the right tools it's always felt right so familiar and so calming yet struggling ahhhh I'm losing my head >.<