Sorry Sky, I guess you'll have to count me as a failed Christian. That's how I see myself, anyway. I believe in God -- the rest I'm not so sure about, which is why I freak out so much about death. It would be nice if I could calmly believe that I'm going somewhere much better after I die, but first of all, if there IS an afterlife, I'm convinced I'm going to hell, and second of all, I'm not at all sure it isn't just eternal blackness once you die -- just a big nothing.

Believe me, I have struggled with these issues for years, so it's not a search I'm just undertaking.

I am not a fan of surprises and the unknown, and death is the ultimate unknown. And it scares the crap out of me.



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