I dnt no what kind of doctor you have this saying "suck it up" is ridiculous. Can you go to a different doctor or see i therapist. I no money is a big issue so people cant afford to. It must be very frustrating to see other people getting help and none for you.

Cutting youself is very serious and you need help for that. i dnt no what to say only that its a crap situation for you im sorry.