i can't take it anymore my life is hell i don't have support from anyone in my home i hate conflict but it's like they find every little flaw in me to bring it out i'm lazy i at fault because the house is a mess my the *****ed me out called me an abortion of nature and then my my mom said i was a little manipulator i'm 23 i have no where else to go i have no friends i'm in phisical pain and no one understands i just can't go on like this anymore i've already said i would get rid of my puppy so my mom would shut up now she is mad because i'm giving him away he is pure bred shih tzu puppy she is like sell him i said for what money so that my sister can claim that the money should go to her i can't deal with more drama my brain hurts my right eye twiches all the time when will i feel relief i just wan to die so the %#@&#! around me stops but i don't have the nerve to do it i learned in the bible how precious life is and that our lives belong to him if i take my life then i have no forgiveness from god and that would mean that i was a failure to him i don't know what to do it getts hardwer everyday living with anxiety and being judge and feeling completely alone my comfort now is this website but i can't go on much longer like this i get blamed for everything i been told i'm the black sheep of the family yet i don't drink don't smoke i'm a virgen and i don't do things i should not wtf do they want from me my sis is the one who lives life like a hore yet steph is the manipulator and is crazy why don't they do me a favor and commit me so then i can be awayy from them am unemplyed and sadly rely on them but i don't ask them for %#@&#! not even cash i can't do it no more i'm a prisoner outside and inside ...