I have spent my life feeling different. I think I fall into 3 categories with others:

a) They think I am difficult
b) They think I am weird
c) They value the fact that I am a good listener

The 4th category is when I used to get drunk and then everyone loved to have me around as I was a complete idiot and up for anything.

I watched others, who were popular, funny and liked. I envied them and hated myself.

But over time I have become more accepting of myself - I can even enjoy my own company sometimes. I am better at superficial relationships these days, but I still know that generally I do not fit neatly into most social situations.

I guess the bottom line for me is that I could wish for all sorts of things in life, but I am who I am and I need to stop looking at the green grass on the other side of the fence and learn to love me for who I am.