Sorry you are so confused. PTSD is not an "excuse". It is real and it is a compounded disorder. I have been dealing with it, in therapy for 17 years... and still I'm learning "the nature of the beast."

Tell people less than you think they might understand. They don't. They can't... it just isn't logical to them, all these symptoms that they think are all in our heads... just snap out of it, or just think about what you are doing or or or

...I can misspeak like the best of us