Hi Lavender,

I'm sorry that you're feeling so bad right now. I've been there, and I guess that I stayed alive for some of the same reasons that you are hanging on. It's not really a way out, is it? But things won't stay that bad. For me, it was a wake up call to figure out what needed to change in my life. Therapy helps, and I found some books that made a difference too. Books about people who had some of my limitations and still accomplished the things I thought I couldn't do. That helped me to believe that there was a way out, through reclaiming my life, not escaping from it. It won't be overnight, but you don't have to be a prisoner anymore.

Rap