Sigh,

I don't have a magical answer either, but I've been in your situation many times where I was convinced that I had some horrible disease. And, like you, I was afraid to go to the doctor because I didn't want to find out that it was true. I finally made myself go get checked out each time this happened, and I was shocked when they told me they didn't see anything seriously wrong.

I'm not saying that there's nothing wrong with you--your symptoms are worrisome. And maybe the doctor will give you bad news--but then, maybe he won't. If he does, you can move forward from there and get whatever it is treated and stop fearing the unknown. At least you'd know what you were dealing with. If he doesn't, then you can breathe a huge sigh of relief and stop worrying so much.

My prayers are with you!