Hi there my friends (hope I can use that, even though we just met) -

First to EVERYONE: THANK YOU!!!

This is cool, as one put it, to be able to just 'be me' on here... it truly does relieve quite a bit - and i've already started feeling much better than I have... Just impatient is all - i want to be better NOW!!!

As an FYI to all, I've been put on Reperidone and Seroquel this 'round'... We'll see how this goes as well as how I'll react to this trial/error regimen.

I know someone posted (I DO APOLOGIZE FOR NOT REMEMBERING - SO MANY HAVE RESPONDED!!!) info about State Mental Health Assistance, which I looked into, and so far on Indiana's gov site (www.in.gov), I'm not having too much success other than finding assitance for (emphasis) FAMILIES.. Since I do not have a dependent, it appears I've hit yet anoter road block... Plus, another downfall, is that bcuz I 'technically' am insured, I wouldn't qualify for squat, even though benefits have been exhausted.. Big shocker...

And I did confirm, with my insurance, that I've over-used my yearly allotment on the mental health side... I was told, after I went to pay my co-pay, that this visit and subsequent visits will not be covered. Since I saw the actual psychiatrist, this means a $180 bill... The therapists are $120... I also have to PRE-PAY from now on before I can be seen.... This is a shame that they will RX you something, tell you follow-ups are necessary (which I DO agree with), and then expect you to pay the full fee up-front!!

...And then I/We wonder why things don't get better? Now I've got to worry about climbing my money tree out back before each visit... GREAT!!! I think that tree has been 'trimmed' as much as it can be for the rest of its life...

Thank you for all your prayers and continued support. I intend to look over other posts today and try to give a few words to another friend. It's only fair - I don't want to abuse the priviledges of the forums by only concentrating on me... I look forward to talking soon and hugs to everyone Niko