Hi Lavender -

I'm new on here, but I'd like to try and give a bit of words as well...

I too, agree with the others that getting rid of the puppy should be avoided. It seems he/she is a 'safety net' for you so to speak. The puppy is your way of having something there, that is tangible, to more/less go to for relief.

Also, you actually helped ME via your post bcuz I never thought about finding and using something like a dog to help cope, deal, turn to, etc... I'm a christian myself, and you are right that life IS PRECIOUS - which means SO IS YOURS ..... Although you may not feel it right now, I know for a fact that you are on this earth for a reason; just as all of us are... We have a few differet set of issues than others do - so what? Everyone has issues - we just have problems - or I should say more problems - dealing with them...

But as everyone else says, WE ARE HERE to listen and do whatever we can... Talk to us all you want... Talk to me all you want... Like I said, I'm new on here, but I'm MORE than happy to listen - feel free to write me via email or PM if you want to let it out... I'll listen; we will all listen... And we will all be here as much as we can.

I, too, have not a dime to my name nor do I have a way to support myself. I'm at the mercy of my brother, who thinks I"m either faking or just have to get attention, so I COMPLETELY know this feeling. I lost everything I owned - including my home.. Anxiety, Panic, etc. are ALL things that escalte every time more BS is thrown at us... I know this is very difficult, but TRY - please just TRY - to ignore the things that are said... Use that comfort 'zone' you have with the puppy... Don't let them dictate your life - if you find comfort in the puppy, than that is YOUR perogative - no one elses!!

I'll keep you in my prayers hun - just don't let yourself get into a rut - talk all you want to us in order to prevent that from happening OK?

Hugs to you
Niko