yea, i made it to my pdoc. It was a good session, and we got to the root of it, and we addressed a lot of what was making me so panicy. i don't get to see T for another two and a half weeks, because her vacation and mine. so, looking forward to those fresh sessions. co-t and i are meeting this week tho!

i take a lot of showers to help me stay not dissociated and it calms me down. So, that's a plus. water is a big calming thing for me.

and writing. been writing a lot of private stuff down to share with t, and co-t.