Wow, I can understand some of this myself. I must say I had to laugh a little when I read that you were in a relationship with someone from the psych ward because I too am dating someone I met in the psych ward. I have been with him for over two years now and sometimes its pretty messy and we have to work really hard at our relationship but we do understand each other. I can also relate to your experience of cutting too. For me it seems when I feel too angry or guilty I don't know how to express it and that is when I cut. Anyway, I hope everything works out for you feel free to keep in contact. This is a good place to be.