There's always another thing. Every time I get through one issue, specifically without SI, then in no time at all there's another one. I always get through whatever the issue is, thinking things will get better once I do. That there's no need to SI, things will get better. But they never do, do they? There's always something else, just waiting while I get through one thing, waiting for its turn. It's like I'm playing a ****ed up game of mental whack-a-mole or something.
I try to get through crap without self-destructing, I really do, but it's like I've used up all my energy for that kind of thing already and I'm just tired. I still tried to avoid SI....drinking instead turned into a bad idea (who would've guessed...). I also tried writing instead. Writing used to be the only non-self destructive thing that's kept me from SI long term. So I tried to write again. I just ended up triggering myself. Badly.

Yeah, 2 threads in less than a day. Not doing so great am I? I wasn't entirely sure where to even post this, because it's not strictly an SI issue. Just the fact that once one issue is dealt with, there comes another is getting to me. But considering the fact that it's just making the urges from the current issue worse, I figured it was most appropriate to post here.

Does anyone else feel like when you get through one thing, more crap ALWAYS pops up? I'd just like a little break, that's all. I know that deep down I don't want to go back to SI. But I'm running out of alternatives. The scary part is, I honestly don't care.