i had such terrible side effects from meds that i can not take them. i have been coping for 20 yrs now without meds, and in the early years it was a horrible rollercoaster ride with panic around every bend. but i persisted in learning coping skills, i learned to be mindful of my symptoms and use the skills i had left, and finally i found a brain balancing auditory (sound) therapy called Holosync, sold by CenterPoint.com.. it has had an amazing effect, balancing my mood swings and even restoring my memory, over a 6 yr time period...

try learning Cognitive Therapy, and Behavior Mod, and BioFeedback, and anything else that MIGHT help,, and persist...

best wishes,, Gus