I am amazed at the lack of support that my mom and B/F are NOT giving me. They were contstantly on me to get help. They were so concerned. They were fed up. They were stressed because of my mood swings. So I finally say uncle and swallow the shame that comes with admitting that I have gone to long without getting help. I don't have insurance and my attempts at getting county mental health help were fruitless. But I perisited in trying to seek help and kept trudging ahead when I really wanted to give up. I finally get assitance from a wonderful woman through my B/F EAP. Someone finally heard my plea for help and she went out of her way to get me my own free sessions (major exception to policy). Anyway, I didn't give up when I really didn't want help in the first place. In the past week I have had to acknowledge and deal with the dark corners of my life that I have avoided facing and even forgot about years of emotional damage. So this week I had no choice but look at my junk because I saw myself in everything I read, the tests I took placed me in severe status and hearing the therapist tell my how bad off I was almost was more than I could handle. I admitted to my mom and B/F how bad off I really was and that I needed their support and help in taking some of the weight off my back. I am.......hurt, disappointed, and mad that they have NOT offered any help and have only added more to the plate. HELLO I said help me not kick me while Im down. I am so worn out and broken and need to lean on someone or something before I collapse. I turn to them for help and they go deaf I guess. Mom continues to complain that I don't do things "right" and my B/F just isn't there...another thing all together. I am so used to going it alone and have learned not to depend on anyone else. Im alone, lonely, scared, mad.....I'm hurt. I have given up asking for their help. Once again, I go it alone.....well, now I have all of you. Thanks. Feel better already (kinda).