I am so sad to read your post 318mph4me, do you have friends to lean on for support? If not just keep trying and hopefully your boyfriend and/or mother will come around. If not perhaps there is support some where where is less expected.

And Please keep posting!

I can related with gettin help.... i, myself have had pride issues with admitting I am not doing a good job with me and still am looking for help for a therapist bit ya know what, its ok to ask for help, see some light from others that have knowledge with talking and giving suggestions to people. Don't give up on help, even if it comes from books or sites.
Good luck and I wish you well!

Keep talking too